Excuse this intereption.

A Breif Message from our Writer.


DO NOT TELL ME WHAT I BELEIVE! DO NOT TELL ME WHO I AM!

I am me.

You can be you.

I won't mind. Part of the great thing about this world is its diversity. Sure I want whats best for all the people I know and love, and I may not agree with you on everything but thats also apart of life. I'm not gonna try and tell you who you are, that up to you to decide.

I know not everyone is gonna agree. But thats also part of life.

I'm also pretty sure they're may be those people who read this and will get totally offended for some reason or other. My intention is not to offend, its to vent some frustration.

Anway again I reinterate.

I will be me, you can be you. We don't have to agree on everything, we might not like all the same things, but until the day where I am you and you are me, please just be yourself.

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After thought stuff

Ummm ok so I just read this over, and it makes like little to no sense. I'm leaving it up because well I want to.

I wasn't trying to be all inspirational or anything I was just frustrated from people and rather than bottle it in and wonder what would happen if I didn't vent the frustration, I poured it out onto here.


Anyway I hope all of your days are well.

Cinamon Rolls!

So last night I have a dream about Cinamon Rolls! Warm Gooey fresh from the oven with mounds of icing Cinamon Rolls! And just before I was about to take a bite out of the sugary goodness, I woke up :( THis put me in the mood for Cinamon Rolls all day which I didn't get til around lunchtime, and they were store bought pre made stuffs. No matter they were still yummy :3

Also I was singing today. I still think I sound a little well crappy, but thats probably mostly due to the fact that I haven't sang in a while. In fact I was making up songs, more songs that sound like they belong as part of a musical, but still, and as usual since I didn't write it down or record it as soon as it showed up in my brain the songs I made up (I had two seperate songs going) are now vanished, can't recall how they went at all :(

Last nights episode of TBBt had me laughing and squeeling like some stupid fangirl (which yes I'm a fangirl but when I say this I'm reffferring to the over the top OMG I'm gonna die if I don't satisy my fandom hungers fangirls) BUt anyway I just loved it it was soo sweet, and I'm thinking if the writers keep saying there's never gonna be a canon Shenolope or Shenny or S/P or whatever you call it, than why, why on earth do they feeed the fangirls with episodes like last nights? I'm not saying I don't like it, in fact I am Shenny Shipper, I'm just saying and rambling nonsense like usual.

Anyway on to other things Star Trek came out today! WooT! Awesome I loved that movie it was sooo Eeee! I'm not that big of a Trekie of anything, didn't see much of the orginal series the movie is based on, I wanna say roughly based on seeing as the creators changed the time/storyline. But yeah I don't really know much on the matter

Hmm in other news. I dog sit next week. YAY! Which means Filming!! Double Yay! Or at least hopefully filming thats when the new scheduled filming time was set but I'm not a 100% sure it will happen. I really hope it does but I still haven't found someone else to help like I need them too. :(


Anyway I beleive thats th end of this ramble, so tata for now.

OH! Before I forget, if you read this, feel free to leave comments, they can be describing how your day went or even sstating your opinions of something mentioned in the journal posts. You can ask questions, any questions that pop into your brain, I can't guarantee I'll answer alll questions, but will try my best to. ^^

Anyway TTYL

Long Time No Post

So really my life got real dull real fast. Not that it was ever of mucbh excitment, like the series I'm planning on filming (at least filming part of it)

Anyway packing for basic, I realize "Hey! I have no idea how to pack!" So I enlisted the help of my mother! Yep! And she helped by sitting next to the box and asking me questions and packing what I handed her, while I sorted and packed as well. Turns out my insecuritiies and stuff was all in my brain. Heh, I'm insecure! Dadada! Another epiphanie!

I really do have some issues don't I? But hey everyone has insecurities and if you dare tell me you don't well than you lie! Lie I say!!

Anyway as I was sayoing before my life has become well, blah, I haven't written any of my stories or fanfics like I promised I would, I haven't been running or working out like I really need to, all my attention has been focused on that film projject of mine I mentioned earlier. Which may not even begin filming before I leave for basic like I want. :( No! Ok no I plan to at least have some of it filmed at least the first episode (which is as lame as any other pilot out in the world ...seriously even after I have it posted I don't recommend watching the show until episode 2 than going back to episode 1 if you like)

But yeah.

OMGosh! I sooo need to tell you guys out there, I was woken up yesterday at 4 in the morning! Seriously 4 AM! by some dimrod who decided to go revving his stupid car engine as loud as he could, twice! Seriously who does that? I can understand some people bein up by 4 and wanting to get started on their day and all but really revving your engine while others are trying to sleep!? AUGH!

Ok thats rant done and over with. So to sum up my life.

I plan on filming a short episode of my series before leaving for basic on the 8th
Pretty much all my stuff is packed
I've been watching Inuyasha instead of writing like I need to be
And I'm going to die in basic training because I haven't been working out or running

Ok now that we're all caught up....how have you been? ^_^

Stuff to do

Well before anything else, weird dream last night. At one point John Krasinksi (as Jim) Steve Carrel (as Michael) and Jenna Fischer (as Pam) lll showed up. Yeah Michael was trying to do some project and had dragged Jim and Pam to help. I'm guessing it was a film project cuz Jim was carrying a camera. Well somehow the dream changed to be very similar to that of a modern day fairytale romance. Prince moves to america searching for princess, Prince sees girl defend young man against bullies and goes to help, Girl and Prince start hanging out become good friends, at formal dance Prince reveals that hes a Prince, Girl totally flips out, and thats where I woke up.

Anyway in other news, I passed my drivers test yesterday so tomorrow Ima gonna get me my drivers liscence Yeeeee! How exciting, that tet was short felt like 5 minutes of quick drive around town then I passed. WooHoo

So in the category of stuff I need to do, I NEED to finish cleaning, sorting, and packing my room, what a pain, but it must be done. I need to gain weight/work out more to prepare for basic, another big pain.

In the category of want to do's. I want to buy a camera after wich I want to film a short 'movie'? I guess thats what I'll call it. I want to write another chapter to Fly on the Wall and Unbalanced. I also want to write more to The Vespa. I want to do something else, I just can't think of it at the time.

Anyway side note JIm Parsons is cu-ute! ^_^

Anyway hope whoever is reading has/had an enjoyable weekend. G'Luck during the rest of your week, unless you have any perfomances then Break a Leg.

Highlight of My Day

So as lame as it may sound the highlight of my day today was watching the clip that Gabriel Iglesias (extremley funny dude by the way) posted as the clip that got him banned from Nickelodeon. Really funny, I then proceeded to watch the rest of the clips he has up on youtube, and laughed some more. On a laugh high now I went and watched a couple episodes of Big Bang Theory

(I'm obsessed!! Help me, I'm addicted, I need help! Don't get me wrong it an awesome show, I love it, but after having looked up trivia for the show, its actors, reading fanfiction, finding fanart, and having caught myself acting like Sheldon on more than one occasion. I have to the logical conclusion that I'm addicted and should seek help, I'm not gonna any more than typing it here, cuz I love that show too much.)

Anyway coming back from that tangent my day has been lame (entirley my own fault I really could do something with my life I just choose not to) I'm trying to upload a video on youtube which refuses to upload, its nothing really just me being bored and rambling via video. I also tried making cookies today! I was halfway through mixing ingredients went to the fridge to grab eggs and discovered there were no eggs in the fridge!! It was upon this moment I remembere that I had hardboiled the remainder of the eggs yesterday for some egg salad.

Seriously! My memory sucks that much!!

Its November! AAAAAAAH! The fear of having to go to basic is setting in.

I am too addicted to technology to be without it for 8 weeks! :( (how sad is that?)

oh yay! [RANT WARNING]

Its another book to movie adaptation I will hear no end of. Cirque du Freak : the Vampires Assistant came out friday was it, anyway we went and saw it today.

I loved it by the way, I only read 4 maybe 5 of the book series, but based off what I read it was a pretty good adaption, I sort of want to read the rest of the books now but its not the like this dieing OMGosh if I don't read them my life will forever be in ruins type thing, you know? Anyway the music was awesome, I liked the plot, the effects were definatley better than that of a previous vampire movie. Sure they added, took away, and jumbled, but really I would expect no less of a book to movie adapation. ^_^

Anyway but my main thing now, is that I have to deal with all the "thats not the way the book was." crap about this movie now too. Yes I know its your opinon you all are allowed to voice your opinion yadda yadda yadda but seriously if you really expect 17+ hours of a book to be 'correctly' portrayed in a 2 to 3 hour long movie well hoenstly, its never gonna happen.

Ok it might or possibly may have already, but really there is no pleasing everyone, you have to remember that not everyone visualizes books the same in their brains. The author, the screen writer, director, actors, costume makers; they each have a different idea of what the movie should be like, so really thats what we should try and think of book to movie adaptions as, the rare glimpse into how other people visualize and they think of these stories that we also love.

I really hope that the above rant was at least coherent, and please no one take a offense, its just my opinion plus some frustration I needed to get out. Anyway feel free to make your own input.

Also please vote in the 'What's Your Crazy Poll' yeah I know its lame and all but I have no life I know I'm crazy and I want to see how other people feel they are crazy.

Weird Dreams

So last night had a weird dream, didn't start out that way. Started out younger siblings had a snow day so couldn't go to school, so instead we went to the mall, where I lost track of everybody, yeah so far not all that unusual.

So I went off adventuring and wound up bumping into someone who owned the most adorable dog you'll ever see. Anyway the owner of said dog was Jim Parsons/Sheldon Cooper, umm he talked like he was Sheldon Cooper but he was so happy-go-lucky that it couldn't be Sheldon. Anyway I think at this point in the dream I was either sposed to be somehow Sheldon's younger sister (which he doesn't have by the way so I have no idea why I'd be that) or I was sposed to be Penny, cuz I don't think I was me. Anyway so Jim/Sheldon and I flirted and jested for the remainder of the dream.

Yeah thats the most I remember of the whole thing. I beleive I need to get a life, and become less addicted to Big Bang Theory, if thats even possible!

SO yeah Panera bread is awesome! I love their Broccoli Cheddar soup.

Do petitions work?

My whole life people have been asking me to sign petitions. Stupid peices of paper with a cause written at the top and a gazilion little lines beneath it for people to sign. Well of course now a days in the new modern lazy boy era, pettiotns have changed to forward this email to all your friends(lamest one by far, how on EARTH do you track that thing, stupid garbage chain e-mail should be devoured by the monster comp)or on facebook you join those little apps or groups to say "oi! Change back facebook" (never happens) even twitter "Follow this person to join this cause" yadda yadda yadda.

But seeing all these petitions and groups and people to follow gets me thinking do petitions even really work. I mean I remember all the different groups I was asked to join when facebook made its first 'improvement' and everyone went all in an uproar going no! We want the old facebook back, they never did gete the old facebook back. Personally I got on facebook, didn't notice a thing til everyone started complaining and went oooh yeah thats whats different, then also began to join the complainers.

I mean I know I've heard before with the olden day sign this slip of paper, for a cause I don't know what and if we get blah blah blah amount of signatures we can have such and such changed. I don't even know if any of them worked! I was too laxzy to follow up.

So my question to you is do petitions really work? I'm being serious, genuine curiostiy here folks, I dunno whats what or who's who or why they provide 50 lines when they need a hundred signatures. Anyway so yeah, really do they work?

A Day of Epiphanies

So today the family and I went to the all for lunch, where I went to Chik-fil-A.

While eating my lunch and drinking my cookies-and-cream milkshake it dawns on me that "Hey! Cookies-and-cream ice cream is just vanilla ice cream with cookies bits mixed in it." Seriously dawned on me just today, after years of eating this kind of ice cream. Then eating my waffle fries it dawned on me that much like regular fries and a frosty I can dip the waffle fries in my cookies and cream milkshake. Before this realization it dawned upon me that waffle fries are made of potaoes.

But yeah its still snowing, and at 4:00 I have to be at my recruiters office for my 45 day meeting.

Holy COW! 45 days until I have to go to basic, I better start running, and lifting weights again. :( I also have to sort all my stuff between storage, tech school, and give away.

Anyway watching Big Bang theory, zoned out, forgot what on earth I was talking about, and so I guess I'll leave it at that.

So something sad is discovering you're talking and acting like a charcter from a television show or movie. Whats even sadder is discovering that character your mimicking is Sheldon Cooper from Big Bang Theory.

As much as I love him, I don't want to be Sheldon Cooper.

Boredom.

I've notice a tendency to get slightly crazier when I'm bored. Not saying that I would claim to be sane when I'm not bored, but when bored definatley get crazier.

For instance the other day I found myself in a very heated argument with myself. I can't recall what exactly about or even why it started, but I was arguing with myself.

That's how half my story ideas get started, conversations with myself. Sometimes after that I can't write the storty unless I speak it aloud, which kinda bites considering I'm not very good at clarifying at who's speaking when aloud, I know who's talking because I'm adding all the other details in my brain, but basically I do just act out my stories. I really need to learn to just sit down and write them down or type them.

Oh! thats another thing, converting handwritten stuff to the computer, yeah it helps with the editing and everything but all in all I find it a nuissance. I mean it wouldn't be near as bad if I'd just handwrite the entire story until its finshed instead of what I do do which is to hand write some get motivated to write again go to the computer to write, end up transferring hand written stuff and lose motivation.

Speaking of motivation, writers/artists block is one of the most annoying things, staring at the pages knowing you need to write more, knowing what you want to write but just unable to get it written. Its like baking cupcakes almost, but not. No actually forget that its nothing like baking, baking is all about patience where as writers block is about trying not to tear you own head off in frustration, which is more anger managment.

However this started out as a post about boredom so let me get back to my originally point, anyway usually when I'm bored and wanting to go crazy with the talking to myself, dancing like a maniac, acting out my unwritten stories, and such. Im either alone home or in a public place where I'm 98% certain I'm never gonna see these people again. HOWEVER today turns out to be a snow day, which means my 3 younger siblings are home today as well (Yes I'm 20 years old and still live with my parents, so sue me. Its only for a couple months more) So anyway this means that I can't go crazy from boredom, which means I have to sit here in silence and just let the crazy build up. Its not fun.

I hate snow.

Birthdays. They bite.

Today I turned twenty. No big deal really I feel the same as I did when I was 19, which if you beleive it was the same I felt when I was 16. With a few exceptions. Those exceptions are all my friends are online.

Its no joke it's really true. I mean sure I have aquaintances with whom I speak offline in the real world. But all my real close friends are online. They didn't used to be, but then people moved or went to college, starting off on their lives and all, and here I wait, alone. Yeah I know I'm being melodramatic, like any other hormonal female.

Anyway so I'm twenty, I got one birthday card in the mail, which made my heart sink in my chest a little. But people still wished me birthday greetings online, which is all good and fine. ^^

I babysat last minute for this family who had a baby today that was nice, made me feel good. Afterwards went to a church halloween party which wasn't so fun, because I wound up just feeling alone and depressed, so I came home early and watched Big Bang theory and started this blog, ^_^

How lame am I?

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